Live With Faith (Week 3)


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I’ve decided that I want to do more than just read the Bible, I want work harder at living it. So I’m taking a verse a week, to work on living out.  
“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews‬ ‭11:1‬ ‭NIV‬‬
LIVE IN STRENGTH – “But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ 
LIVE AT PEACE – “If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬



Live in Strength (Week 2)


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Hello everyone it’s me Jb.
So last week it was ‘Live at Peace’, and so how did you do?? Did you put this into practice?  
Well this week I had planned one verse and then I was reading something and saw this verse and felt that this needed to be the next one. 
“But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:31‬ 

Live in Strength  
Now this one is going to be a bit harder for me, because even though I usually have a lot of strength, I feel like I’m lacking in this department lately. Now I would like to blame it on the crazy Texas weather we are having right now and that it has me out of it, but I know it’s more than that. So now let’s look at this verse, but first lets take a look to the build up. 
“He gives power to the weak and strength to the powerless. Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will fall in exhaustion.”But those who trust in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.” ‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭40:29-30‬ ‭NLT‬‬

This shows us that this will happen to all of no matter how young we are. Because we are only human and we can’t go it on our own. But we want to, we want to find strength in ourselves and do things on our own because I can! But the truth is we can’t and we weren’t meant to. But if we trust in the Lord we will find new strength. That means that in our weakest moments we can trust in God and find our strength! But we don’t always do this like we should. And by we I mean me. I get this thought in my head that I can do this on my own. That I can do this in my own strength, but God is telling me and you. That we don’t have to – all we have to do is trust in him and he will give us strength. Because we CAN’T always do it on our own. And if you think you can, stop fooling yourself because somewhere in your life something is lacking whether it is relationships, health, or just your own well being. If you are just drawing on your own strength and think that you’ve got it all you have done is mastered the art of illusion to yourself. 
Now hear me because I say it this with love. I say this because I’ve been guilty of this, but this is not a place you want to stay in. This is not the way you want your life to be. But it’s hard to think we aren’t strong enough, but news flash we aren’t. So let’s draw on His strength. 
So we will add strength, to our list. As we Live at Peace and now in Strength. This is going to be a hard one to add, but we can do this. If during this process you have a story of how living out these verses have changed something in your life, send me a message or comment in the notes. I would love to hear your story. So now let’s practice living in Strength. See you next week. 

Live At Peace


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Hello everyone it’s me Jb. I haven’t done a video in a while and I wanted to start this year off great. To be honest 2016 has been the worst year out of my life so far. And I don’t say that lightly, I’ve been taking stock and this last year, and even including the year I saw a man killed this has been the worst year. I have had the most pain, lost and unstableness, I’ve ever had. I’ve learned a lot about myself and what I can handle and I’ve learned that without God, this year would have been the end of me emotional.  

I noticed in 2015, God was changing me, I was becoming more of an emotional person. I’ve always been a stuffer and for the more part I still am, but I’m more open with my emotions. I shared this with a friend who told me that maybe God was preparing me for something and I honestly I think it was for this year, there are a few things that happen that I think was all preparing me for this year. Some changes I made, some things I felt God was telling me. And since he has been dealing with me with opening up more and telling my story. I’m now sitting here sharing things I would have never shared in a million years. But the thing is we all have a story and that story could help someone else get through what they are going through and you can’t help if you don’t open your mouth. 
So even though this was the hardest year of my life, God has been right beside me, lining up the things that were needed for it to not be too much for me to bare. Because he says, he won’t won’t put more on us than we can bare and for us to take on his yoke, and that his yoke was easy. I have been holding on to these things. All the promises that he has made us.  
The end of this year ended with the death of my biological father, this effected me differently than I expected. And it’s had me thinking about so many things. One of those things was my relationships with people and wanting to make sure I do everything in my power to live at peace, because we don’t know when our day will come. And I want to know everyday. That I’ve done all I can do, because I’m only responsible for what I do. This is me, trying my best to live out God’s word. But with this I feel I want to do more. I want for my life and experiences to be used by God. I want for my life to reflect what God wants for us and that means living his word. So I’ve decided to take a verse a week to really think on and try to live out. Because I feel I read the Bible and I know what it says but am I really living it. Am I really committed to the God who has saved me and has given me everything and has seen me through so much. Then I need to live it. So this is me trying my best so each week I will share my verse and each week one more new thing to live out.  
So since I’ve already started with this verse I thought it should be the first one. 

“If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬
So I practicing this one as the year begins and I have to say, it feels good knowing that I have tried, and this one is a hard one because to truly live at peace you have to put you to the side, you have to extend yourself even at the cost of your feelings, because it doesn’t say to live at peace only if it’s easy. Because it won’t be, but what I love about this is that it’s as far as it depends on you. Which lets you know not everyone will respond like you want them to, but you have to do what you need to do.  
I want this verse to be lived out in my life and it will be. Because one thing I’ve relieaxes with my fathers death is. If I cjould live at peace with the man that has caused me the most pain in my life then I can live at peace with anyone and everyone and I will. Because live is too short to not have peace. It makes me so thankful that God has made me really forgiving because know I know this verse is possible for me to live out. 
So how about you? Is there anyone you need to start your journey of living at peace with? Do you need to step out and reach out? Will it be hard yes? Could you get your feeling hurt? yes. But could you also mend a bridge and get that person back in your life? And I can tell you right know, that there is no better feeling than knowing that as far as it concerns You, that you are living at peace. That is a feeling I can’t even describe.
So join me, as I spend this year going through different verses and working at living them out. Some may be easy others will push you, but all of them will bring you closer to God and that is My Desire. 
So let’s start this week with peace, Til next week ….. 

As far as it depends on you…


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“If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone.”‭‭Romans‬ ‭12:18‬ ‭NIV‬‬
This verse keeps playing in my head, over and over again. I try my best to do this, but is my best good enough. Do I really try to live at peace with everyone?  

I have really been questioning this and had three people come to mind. Have I really done all I can. Honestly I’m not sure, honestly I can’t be sure. So I decided to make myself sure. I decided that my ego, feelings, the hurt, everything needed to be put to the side, because I needed to know as far as it depends on me. 
This causes you to step out, this causes you to understand and know that you may feel regected again, you may get your feelings hurt, they may not respond like you want them to. But the Bible says ‘as far as it depends on YOU’. And some things have nothing to do with you. Sometime people just don’t because of something with them, and that doesn’t depend on you. 
Today was my last day doing my as far as it depends on me. I did what I felt in my heart, I needed to do. To make right the things that were wrong, even the things I didn’t understand why they were wrong. All I can do is reach and try. So for today I can say that I’m living that one verse. That as far as it depends on me!! This I can do today this, I can take with me, this I can know that God is pleased with. I want to wake up tomorrow and know I did what I could today. I don’t know if the ones I reached out to will choose peace with me. But I know I did! I know this one thing, now I can see what tomorrow brings.

Just breathe


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Just sit still and smile. Smile, but don’t smile too much, too much smiling isn’t acceptable, is it?

Just nod, just nod as they talk to you, but what are you nodding to. What did they just say, and what did you response?

Just pretend, pretend like you know them. ‘Yes I remember you, I saw you once when I was a year old, but of course I do.’ This makes them happy and that is something you can give.

Just look sad, this is something you can do, because he is no longer here, and You don’t know your plan or purpose here with these people you don’t know.

Just try not to lose it, don’t stand up and yell at all the people talking about this man. This man that wasnt there for you, but they think he was the greatest man alive and you don’t recognize this person they talk about.

Just look forward, when the people around you begin to whisper.  Remember, this you are use to, this has happen to you many times before. So just look forward instead of screaming at them. ‘Yes, I am real, I was born, I had no choice and if you want to know the birth order just ask I will tell because I have no shame.’ You haven’t done anything to be ashamed of, all You did was breathe.

So Just Breathe, for as long as you can, breathe and serve your purpose. His time to breathe is over, but you have to continue, you have to figure out this strange new path of emotions, of things that you didn’t think would hurt so much, but they do they hurt, they hit you at the wrong moments they make you think of so many things. Things that will never be, things that you were ok with when he was still breathing but now the lost of breathe has changed things. Things that were ok, now don’t feel ok. Now they feel wrong so now you do what you know to do you just breathe. You take it day by day, you make your list you follow your list. You remember to eat, check off your list, you cry when you need to, but you keep going you breathe, you just breathe.

Only one thing is certain in life.


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There is only one thing certain in life, we will all die. This is the only thing we know for sure. It will happen, no one lives forever. So why does this surprise us? This is the thing that almost takes the breathe away of those still living. 

I knew this was happening over a year ago God softly whispered it in my ear and I accepted what I already knew. That we all die, but that his time was coming in the near future. I didn’t feel much, he was never there, and as time went on a reconnection was made, not part of my plan. But as we know God has his own plan. So I began to talk to the Man that should know me better than any other man, to discover he knew nothing, but slowly found out I had some things in common with this stranger. Because this stranger was a part of me, there were things I got from him that I didn’t even know. And even though I can count on my hands how many times I’ve seen him in my life, he is a part of me, like it or not. There was a whole other life he had with children that he cared for and were there for, but that wasn’t my story. 

I got past the hurt and the angry many years ago, but the disappointment will probably always be there. Because it would have been nice to have more to remember him by than just some phone calls over the last few months. That’s all I have and that’s all I plan to hold on to. All small as it is, I will hold on to that. To him asking me my favorite color because he didn’t know what else to ask. You see we all die, we will all pass on, but as the living we get to decide what we hold on to. Do we hold on to the pain? Do we hold on to the missed opportunities? Do we hold on to the anger? Or do we hold on to the good stuff, even if it was only some phone calls? I always want to choose the good, I always want to choose what is best for my soul while I’m here on earth. Because we all die, we can’t change it, we can’t stop it, we can’t buy our way out of it. So do what you can to change what you can… your outlook. 

I honestly didn’t think I would miss him, but I do. Only a few months of memories, but I miss him. I pray that when he passed on that he had peace with the fact that even though it was later we tried, WE tried. I pray that in his last months I gave him what he needed from me. I pray that he is now in heaven praising God and that one day I will see him again. And I pray for anyone who has lost someone and the relationship wasn’t the best at the time they passed on. I pray you choose the good, I pray you let go of anything else, because that other junk it doesn’t matter anymore. Whatever they did, didn’t do, said, didn’t say, it doesn’t matter, you are still here and you have to go on and you have to choose. 

I didn’t get everything I wanted in those last conversations, but I got what I needed something GOOD to hold on to, and really that good enough for me. 

Drop the Labels

I’m posting up a video that I did on my channel a few months ago.  I thought about this video this morning because of something someone said to me a while back.  Someone told me that they felt I was ‘some type of person’ at the time when they said it, I didn’t say or think much about it, because I refuse to let people define me.  But what I didn’t know was that the seed they planted started to grow an insecurity in me. I try my best to be aware of my short comings, so that when things happen I can recognize them.  So I went to a few close friends and asked them, do you think I’m …  I needed some honest feedback, I needed to know if I was just off about the person I thought I was.  They all said no you are not, and gave me examples and reasons of why I wasn’t what that person said I was.  That gave me a sigh of relief, these people had known me for 10 plus years, so they knew me. Also they all like to point out things that are wrong about me, but agreed this was not one of them.  But I couldn’t shake this feeling and the words, and this morning it was eating at me, to the point to where I had to tell myself.  ‘Look, you haven’t let anyone define you in the past, don’t let anyone start now.  Remember what God says about you!’


You see our words matter, the little things we say to people, and then move on with our lives can stick with them.  So what are you saying to those around you?  I ask you, but I also ask myself this.  When I speak, to those around me, am I speaking in Love?  Are the words that I say uplift or put down? Am I breaking someone with my words?


I wanted to repost this video directly on FB because, I needed to hear it again, back then it was about something different, but the message, it is still the same.  The reason I’m purposely not saying what I was labeled as, is because it doesn’t matter because that is not my label, and I will not pick it back up.  I did for awhile, I carried it around like a pet and let it roll around in my brain to the point where I started to believe it, even after my friends told me it wasn’t true.  What is rolling around in your brain that shouldn’t be?  Put that label down and walk away.  Remember what God says about you. ‘You are fearfully and wonderfully made.’ Now that’s a label we should proudly wear.